Friday, July 14, 2017

TRUE LIFE MIRACLE


WHEN GOD MADE MY "MIDDLE FINGER MAN" - (A "FRIEND" OF OVER 20 YEARS WHO FOR SOME REASON MAY HAVE BEEN DISORIENTED) -  SEE REASON - MIRACLES DO HAPPEN - AND HOW! - READ THE TRUE LIFE EVENT BEHIND THE PAIN! 
MAYBE EVEN GOD FELT THE PAIN BEHIND MY CUSS WORDS! - SORRY GOD!  

Just yesterday I had posted a Foreword to my post "MY MIDDLE FINGER SALUTES YOU" - The post was a dare all bare all post opening up to the general people how some people who call themselves your friends can be so downright rude, mean and make your life so miserable that you live every day in dread. I would like not like to post the very hard hitting post that I was working on to be edited with some very strong words and images, but would like to express my sincere apologies to GOD first for losing my cool and, for a moment also the trust that I have always had in him. God possibly saw the pain behind my sudden burst of emotions which was totally unlike me. Here is a brief summary of my horrid journey. I do not want to justify myself to anyone as GOD alone knows what I have gone through, but this could be a lesson to many who may be going through similar situations and are cowed down by the hard hitting behavior of others that makes them stay on the back foot. 

Sad to say that we make friends without realizing or even seeing through their true colors. Even hard to believe and digest when a friend of over 20 years who you thought to be your family friend, guide and mentor stabs you in the back, and treats you like an outsider or rather outcast. Over the past 4-5 years, this friend who we both had helped one another emotionally, financially in times of our most difficult times started treating me like dirt. He was abusive, threatening, maligning and even barging into my home almost running up on me. I was already going through a very bad phase, and no amount of reasoning could make him see reason. I then realized he was taking undue advantage of my soft-spoken nature and my lack of aggressiveness. If I wanted I too could have reacted in a very strong way as I was never at fault, but as he has had a By-pass surgery I was more worried for him that any untoward reaction from my side could possibly be fatal for him. There were many incidents in his own family which I had witnessed which I only knew personally but had not told him to avoid any shock to his mind. I was always forgiving and understanding, but was this what I to get in return for all this kind bigheartedness of mine? 

My sudden burst of emotions yesterday came forward through the foreword of my much more intense post which was due to be posted today as I was adding all the information that had to express in that post. Possibly GOD felt the pain, and thought it better to intervene. Shockingly I received a call from this same friend yesterday afternoon almost immediately after I had posted my foreword. I was already emotionally wrecked and was expecting a barrage of abuses and threats from him, but surprisingly he was totally calm, apologetic and even almost in tears. I could not believe my eyes, when he expressed his sincere apologies for all his behavior, almost sobbing between words, and what transpired between us in those few minutes cannot be described in words. I again was more worried that he being a Heart Surgery Patient should not over strain himself and have any repercussions on his health so heard him out, and expressed my happiness and satisfaction to the fact that whatever be the miracle for him seeing reason he had the courage to talk to me and sort it out. I have never felt a sense of more satisfaction and peace of mind than when I heard his voice, and words so sincerely feel every shame and apology for all that he had done. It was truly GOD's Miracle. 

At the outset, in fact the True proof will come when he is coming to visit me in the afternoon today to personally extend his apologies and patch up for a new beginning. All I can say to God is Thank you God, and sorry for having for a while lost the trust that you are always there to take care of my problems. I await eagerly with bated breath the few hours that separate that glorious moment where God's Own Miracle will prove to us all what I have always been trusting all along that " I am not smiling that I am stronger than my problems, I'm smiling because God is stronger than all my problems, and he always there behind me! 

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